Oh crap… No wonder my family car didn’t last long.
Oh crap… No wonder my family car didn’t last long.
I would love to work at a place like that. :I
All I need are absolute prompts on what to do.
I tend to find my meltdowns happen to make me more verbal for a little bit. But I still cannot communicate afterwards.
I’ll mostly be talking (or crying) to myself, doing the whole ugly crying thing. It lasts about an hour, over the stupidest thing, then I just go silent. I had already let it all out, and there was nothing left at that point.
I’m blank faced, neutral looking. Like a mannequin. The voices in my head have finally gone quiet and I just sit there in silence.
I kind of enjoy the aftermath, for how blank I feel afterwards.
That said, it is more awkward for others who don’t understand that I just want to be quiet.
I should learn how to manage this…
I am trying to find a place locally to take my assessment, but because I’m an adult, I need to pay for it. It’s so hard to get an adult diagnosis, like as if they are trying to prevent you from doing this, because it has no presence in an adult, so you’re wasting our time.
I hope I can bring back some quality lines.
Hard poached eggs topped with cheddar cheese.
I also use ketchup as an additive in cabbage rolls, sloppy joes, or chili, barbecue sauce.
Meat loaf, Japanese omelet rice.
For me, it’s a lack of meaningful contact with my family on the other side of the country.
Facebook and other social media sources are turning into just giant vanity “me me me!” and shit posting. Nothing more meaningful came out of it… So I abandoned it.
It’s hard to keep track of so many different media outlets as well, and got tiring. Especially with a lot of doom scrolling posts… Such a downer.
I’ve found that if I can somehow stop myself from auto responding, and think about what I want to say, I find what I really meant to say becomes the second thing I thought of. I will say that.
The stop doesn’t have to be super long, just enough to catch your thoughts and try again.
It depends on how messed up you are. I definitely need them. Heh. Might not be so bad I’d you don’t. But the initial diagnosis is still nothing to sneeze at.
Where I live, adult diagnosis’ start in the thousands, never mind the constant therapy sessions afterwards that aren’t covered.
It’s too expensive to be officially diagnosed …
I remember trying Keto for a while. After a year, I felt great and had good work ethics. Then COVID hit, and afterwards, I was too depressed to keep up with all the micro managing.
Now my diet includes anti anxiety and focus pills. :P
I may not have a big tip, but here’s what I’ve done when learning other languages…
I listen to people speaking and try to repeat it to myself. If I can hear it in my head, it will sound normal. So when I need to, I can remember how it sounded in my head, and decide if it will sound good in the Curr context.
I remember being called an alien before. XP
What a weird thing to say to someone…
I’m sure this is only a me thing, but for me I found it easier to concentrate on specific sounds… Like the ringing in my ears.
As a kid, I’ve always had ear ringing, but it doesn’t bother me too much in day to day life. I do have to ask people to repeat themselves if I’m not focused directly on them or cant read their lips, but at night or quiet moments, the ringing is a soft and gentle sound, like someone running a moist finger over the rim of some crystal ware. Very nice in winter on a soft moonlit night
I focus on that ringing in a nice quiet and dark room, let it sing in my ears, and then close my eyes.
I then focus on the funny golden geometrical sparkles, triangles, and if I relax, a small black circle with a white border starts to show up. It seems like a 2D object, constantly rotating quickly on a 3D plane, but slowly grows bigger.
For some reason, I find these oddities comforting. The visuals remind me a bit of the pressure halo’s in your vision when you get a migraine, but without the pain, and covering the field of vision with your eyes closed only.
Once when I was 4, I let that black circle engulf the entirety of my vision as I lay in bed, and the black faded into a creamy golden background with rainbow confetti falling. Obviously it’s not really, just some other strange visuals.
Ahem. In either case, I use these to focus and relax at night to tell my brain to shut up.
I like making egg salad, or bread pudding.
I will jump on here and also suggest trying to see if ibuprofen or advil will work for you.
I have had debilitating migraines as well since around 10 years old. Can’t see the dead center of my vision when one starts and then within 15 minutes I get the sparkles that begin to cloud my vision.
If I take Aspirin during that time, it can stop my migraine. I found this out much later in life, after experiencing the horrible pain and vomiting. My doctor has since prescribed me a chewable form of Zolmitripan if it gets worse and I end up vomiting all day.
The lighting in your room can also affect the migraine symptoms. LED light flickering at bad frequencies also triggered migraine.
Thank you so much!
I can definitely see a few parallels as well. I drifted into role playing as well, which helped with a bit of my anxiety and autism. It helped me role play myself out of weird situations and help allow me to behave better in some social cues.
The clutter is interesting, because despite the fact it exists and may be an eyesore to others, I know exactly where things are. Maybe some of the agoraphobia is caused by not knowing where or what things are around you. I get flustered when I don’t create the mess. Heh.
I had a Fitbit watch for a while, but all the data it was offering me felt overwhelming.
I appreciate all the tips and descriptions about yours. :) Thank you!
Uhm… I hate to bother you, but as a fellow “suspected autistic after testing AND agoraphobic”, how does agoraphobia affect your day to day life?
I’ve known I was agoraphobic since I was 7, crossing large, empty, school fields to go home. The fear of that open space, even if you can see everything because there’s no foliage, there’s something off about it. I would deal with this by listening to music. I had a walkman that I would listen to religiously to help. I remember banging out some good Savage Garden in the high school fields. Heh…
Even now, I have issues with small bedrooms in my house, boosting anxiety when I can feel the empty space without clutter. Even sitting in larger vehicles can trigger this feeling.
How are you affected, and how do you manage?
Totally understand. Same issue. But I get disregarded as being a “woman, who can never make up their mind”.
False. I’m just not picky. If I feel like something from somewhere you wanna go, I’ll get inspired then.
…I did end up finding out I hate mango. Now I am teased about that. 🙃