I’ve posted here a lot about my mental health, I lost basically everything, I have no one I can talk to, my car is wrecked, I have less than 100 bucks in my bank account, while I have housing their are problems that make it not the best. I have 1k in debt.
In terms of my housing, I lived with some members a activist group for a bit, but they got too extreme the the point where they think me wanting to pay of my debt, save up for a car is individualist and me wanting to go college is carrierist.
Another thing is I’m an unattractive trans fem, que transphobia, I know y’all are gonna laugh like hell when I blow my brains out, some of y’all might be like THIS IS THE Consequences OF GENDER IDEOLOGY.
I just really don’t see a way forward at all, I felt like there isn’t much for me in this world anymore. Everytime I call a suicide hotline I get the dumbest most braindead advice like do an activity I enjoy as if that changes any of the material conditions of my life.
My plan is to have a dead switch, so when I do die 911 is called to help avoid any unnecessary trauma. It’s crazy to think 22 years ends like this.
I planning on leaving and commiting alone, an automatic 911 call will be placed which will give them the location of my body.
Hi there. We live in weird, frightening times. What can we do to help you get through this? I think you’re worth trying for.
Curious about how to set up an automatic 911 call. Is there like a phone call timer app thing?
Likely a heart monitor plugged into a python script would work. Than have some basic tts read “Hello, this an automated voice message, Skylar is now deceased, heart rate was recorded flat at {{time}} the location is {{location}}” ideally I’m gonna pick a parking garage which isn’t active the day I’m planning on ending it.
What’s alone about that?! The 911 operator thats gets a post mortem call they couldn’t do anything at all to save you?! They have to go home to their family knowing they failed at their job today, they couldn’t save a life.
Or the first response units that have to pick your fucking brains out of the carpet and walls? They have to find you there like that?! The paramedics that have to lift your frozen corpse onto a stretcher and get you out of your house with bits of your head falling into their truck?!
What about the coroner that has to call everyone you know, your parents, and I tell them what they discovered? They need to have this conversation with all of your friends and extended family! Then I hope they have the money and wherewithal to get your funeral sorted through all their turmoil and suffering.
Don’t be so fucking selfish, I wish to FUCK I could tell my best friend just how much of a fucking mess his selfish decision was, how many people he hurt they he probably didn’t think he would, how much damned effort goes into sorting out your life after you’re gone.
Are you that selfish of a person that you don’t give a fuck just how much bullshit you inflict on others with your decision? “Fuck it it’s not my problem anymore, nothing is” Over what, a grand in debt and a run down car? You went through the whole journey of self discovery to become who you are, to come to terms with who you are, in the most accepting time in human history, just for you to fuck it up in the end cause it’s a bit hard? That’s weak. Do better, live you fucking life, be the best you you can be, come out on top.
They deal with death everyday, it comes with the job. And also for the cops are fuck heads that harass black people and ruin people lives, they deserve to see a dead fucking body
You sound like the selfish one, demanding someone live just so that you can be comfortable and unbothered.