I’ve posted here a lot about my mental health, I lost basically everything, I have no one I can talk to, my car is wrecked, I have less than 100 bucks in my bank account, while I have housing their are problems that make it not the best. I have 1k in debt.
In terms of my housing, I lived with some members a activist group for a bit, but they got too extreme the the point where they think me wanting to pay of my debt, save up for a car is individualist and me wanting to go college is carrierist.
Another thing is I’m an unattractive trans fem, que transphobia, I know y’all are gonna laugh like hell when I blow my brains out, some of y’all might be like THIS IS THE Consequences OF GENDER IDEOLOGY.
I just really don’t see a way forward at all, I felt like there isn’t much for me in this world anymore. Everytime I call a suicide hotline I get the dumbest most braindead advice like do an activity I enjoy as if that changes any of the material conditions of my life.
My plan is to have a dead switch, so when I do die 911 is called to help avoid any unnecessary trauma. It’s crazy to think 22 years ends like this.
Blaming HRT on someone being suicidal isn’t science, that’s not even fucking proven. Jesus Christ. Just cause it didn’t help me doesn’t mean it didn’t help countless others fuck
https://scholar.google.com/scholar?hl=en&as_sdt=0%2C31&q=hrt+and+mood+swings&btnG=
It is. Not trying to invalidate your experience here, but now you’re just ignoring peer reviewed research.
I made no comment on the efficacy of the treatment, only that hormones and emotions are causally linked. Changing the hormonal balance in your body can causse mood changes, which can be a risk for your exact experience, like suicidal ideation.
Please go talk to your doctor.
Your response to my post further exemplifies the tunnel vision I mentioned before. You are projecting your pain into what I’m saying – it isn’t there. I’m here to give you information that can help you.
Talking to doctor is still advisable.